Short stories:
- Nayagi , Mistress of Destiny (2009)
MADHAVI strode on. She was delighted. She raised her pavade to the level of her calf. She jumped again. Reaching the final step, she stopped; she let go of the bright blue pavade
embroidered with silk flowers. Madhavi smiled joyfully. Looking down,
she pretended to be giddy. Then, quickly, she pulled back the end of her
pavade to her calf and ran down the stairs as fast as possible.
Fun, she thought, out of breath.
“You look delighted!”
Madhavi was startled for a moment. Her eyes glanced to her left and right.
Then, very politely, she rearranged the black mundani which covered her chest.
“It’s nothing, Ravi Mama. Just for fun.”
Ravi Kumar
who had a thick moustache, smiled. He approached Madhavi and caressed
her loosened hair. Madhavi bowed shyly. Her soft cheeks reddened.
“Paapa, you like running up the stairs?”
Madhavi
nodded faintly. It was true that she enjoyed going up the stairs. That
was the main reason for her visits to Ravi Kumar’s house every day. Or a
secondary factor.
“Do you want to stay permanently in this house?”
Madhavi
looked up at Ravi Kumar. He was thirty-two years old: twice her age.
Ravi Kumar took the opportunity to gaze at her face for a long time.
Then, at her body. Madhavi smiled shyly. Then she ran towards the front
door.
“Hey, wait! What’s the reason for your visit, paapa?”
Madhavi stopped; she remembered the actual reason for coming.
“Haren’s
pacifier was left behind just now,” she said while walking up the
stairs. Yet, this time, she did not run like before; even though she
really wanted to do so. “In Viji Mama’s room.”
In Vijay Kumar’s room, Madhavi looked at the books scattered on the floor.
“Untirutable,” she grumbled as she collected the books one by one and put them on the rack.
“Unthirutable,” she repeated.
Madhavi
was not sure what language that was. According to Vijay Kumar, it was a
colloquialism which could be translated as “unchangeable behaviour”.
Vijay Kumar was a year older than Madhavi. But he was really bright. Maybe he had a lot of blessings from Kalaimahal.
He could speak English. He spoke fluently in Malay. He knew about
Mahatma Gandhi’s assassination two years ago. He knew that Indonesia was
in the midst of gaining her independence. Also, he knew stories of
India’s independence.
Madhavi
was grateful to be able to listen to those stories. Then, she prayed
that her homeland would also obtain independence quickly.
For Madhavi, ever since her grandfather, Kumara Kurunadhar, had arrived here from Kerala as a kangani
in the past and been involved alongside others in the economic
development of Malaya, this land had become her motherland. Also, on
that same basis, Vijay Kumar actively participated with other citizens
to free this country from the shackles of the colonisers.
Vijay Kumar’s dream was for the ethnic parties of MCA, MIC and UMNO to unite, cooperate and work together towards independence.
“If not
us, who else?” Vijay Kumar had once asked such a question. “If in
Indonesia, there is General Sudirman, here too in this country, a
Sudirman will be born!”
Madhavi
normally giggled every time she heard such words. But it was not to make
fun of him. And it was far from wanting to insult him. Madhavi greatly
admired Vijay Kumar’s dream.
Educated
people like Viji Mama needed to be in the forefront preventing the
spread of colonial power, her heart whispered. And Madhavi would always
be behind them with support and assistance.
Madhavi
smiled to herself. When they were married later on, Madhavi wanted to
actively join Vijay Kumar’s struggle for independence.
At that
time, surely Viji Mama would teach me to speak English fluently. Surely
Viji Mama would be a loving and caring husband, and ready to guide me,
her thoughts ran on.
Madhavi covered her face with both hands. Bashfully and shyly, she imagined her future.
“What are
you doing here?” She was greeted by a lad in a striped shirt of black,
red and blue, with a big collar and purple pants. The hint of a
moustache added to the glow on his face.
Madhavi
immediately stood up from the chair facing the green metal window frame;
she pretended to look for the pacifier which she knew for sure was on
top of the piles of books of Subramaniam Barathi’s poems and
Rabindranath Tagore’s collection of short stories.
“The pacifier.” Her voice was soft. Her cheeks were red.
Her eyes sparkled. Her heart beat fast. Her lips curved into a smile. The glass bangles on her wrists clinked.
Vijay
Kumar picked up the pacifier and handed it to Madhavi. Madhavi took it
and ran out of the room. She descended the stairs. Vijay Kumar grinned
sweetly.
“Paapa!”
Madhavi stopped at the front door. Ravi Kumar walked towards her, smiling broadly.
“You cannot behave like this anymore. Walk; don’t run. You are sixteen now!”
Madhavi
did not understand the reason for her uncle’s advice. Didn’t she always
run away when her eyes met Vijay Kumar’s? Ravi Kumar surely didn’t know
because Madhavi had never told anyone about it.
Maybe only
she and Vijay Kumar were aware of the presence of those delicate
feelings in her soul. Or maybe Vijay Kumar himself did not realise it.
Maybe Vijay Kumar had yet to succeed in interpreting the meanings of the
smiles, the bowing of the head and Madhavi’s feeling of shyness every
time their eyes met.
“Tomorrow evening, I’ll be going to your house to ask for your hand. Hasn’t your mum informed you yet?”
Madhavi’s
face was glowing. She looked at her uncle’s face. Then she turned
towards Vijay Kumar who was standing outside his room, upstairs.
“Viji Mama?”
Ravi Kumar
laughed softly. Madhavi’s head was bowing lower and lower out of sheer
embarrassment. Shyly and bashfully, but happily.
“Isn’t he a
patriotic soul? He is always busy. This evening, he wants to attend a
speech on the freedom of women at the Siru Kambam Main Hall.”
adhavi looked at Vijay Kumar. He smiled indifferently. Then he went into his room as Madhavi stole another glance at him.
“It’s fine if he’s not present,” said Ravi Kumar, pouting his lips.
Madhavi ran out in delight.
“Hey! Don’t run ...”
Madhavi ran straight home without caring about his advice.
- The Painted Cat (2010)
Dad came home one night
and woke us from our sleep. We rushed out of the house. Then, we took
out a match and burnt down the house. The whole family stood staring as
the flames brought down the house to ashes.
Since
then, we have been moving from place to place without a house to stay.
This situation is better, said Dad. We don’t have to crack our heads to
think about what colour to paint the walls, what brand of paint to use,
hire someone to paint or paint it ourselves, how many cans of paint
would be needed and so forth.
That
is only about the paint. Dad listed tens – hundreds and thousands,
indeed – of problems that we would be able to avoid all together since
we do not own a house.
“But,
Dad,” said one of us while we were seated inside a peanut shell. “Which
address shall we use for official purposes? What about school
registration; which address to use? What if someone wants to send us a
letter; a fan perhaps.”
“Just
give the Parliament address or our Prime Minister’s,” Dad answered
spontaneously. “At least we won’t be receiving all those junk mail.”
“And we do not have fans,” someone among us added; but not the one who raised the initial question. “We are nobody.”
The
others among us agreed while shaking our heads. By then, we had already
left the peanut shell where we took shelter while waiting for the rain
to stop.
“What about school registration; which address to use?” Someone asked; could have been the same person or someone else.
“Why worry? Have you forgotten that all of you have never been to school,” Dad assured while walking.
“Oh, yeah!” We responded in unison.
* * *
We don’t know why we named him Cat. Perhaps since – to the best of our knowledge – there has never been a cat called “Kucing”, we spontaneously named him Cat.
Others do not have the right to question why we named the cat as Cat. If we were to name a cat as Dog or Snake, people can start questioning the rational behind such a decision. But, aren’t there people out there who name their dogs as Tiger? So, what is wrong with a cat being named Cat?
Cat
is bright. Not very long ago, a government department advertised an
opening for the Head of Department. Words are that all the previous
heads were too old and retired merely a week after being promoted to the
post. So, the Government decided to hire a younger Head of Department
who would last longer.
Cat applied for the job. He was called for an interview. The interviewer had no reason to deny Cat’s right to apply for the advertised position. Cat
seems to fulfil each and every requirement and qualification to be the
head of a government department. Indeed that was the reason why, says Cat, the Public Services Commission called him for an interview.
“We
are looking for a candidate who is fluent in more than two foreign
languages,” said the interviewer while using a pen to circle the
requirement which was indeed clearly stated in the newspaper
advertisement.
Hence, Cat began to deliver a speech in Italian, German, French, Japanese and Hindi.
Strangely enough, the interview result – which was received three months later – says Cat was unsuccessful. It seems that when Cat spoke Italian, German, French, Japanese and Hindi, it sounded the same: miew-miew-miew.
What a stupid interviewer! Doesn’t he know that cats in Italy say miew-miew-miew, cats in Germany say miew-miew-miew, cats in France say miew-miew-miew, cats in Japan say miew-miew-miew and cats in India say miew-miew-miew?
* * *
Mum
would lose her temper if she finds the males among us pretending to
cook. Or if the males among us wanted to play house with the females
among us.
“The
traits of a real man are as follows,” Mum would quote two Western
feminists – Jane Bardwick and Elizabeth Douvan – who have done studies
about the expected behaviour of boys among the American parents:
“Aggressive, strict, brave, active, rational, not influenced by
sentiment, and not showing emotion.”
And
if the males among us are disheartened – and confused – with what Mum
says, and gave Dad a hug or started crying, he would say: “Boys are not
supposed to and are not allowed to show emotion, not supposed to and are
not allowed to hug, not supposed to and are not allowed to have fear;
not supposed to and are not allowed to cry.”
A
female among us tried to quote Dr James Prescott, a neuropsychologist:
“The aggressiveness and violent behaviour among adult males are among
others caused by the lack of hugging and the lack of physical touch
during the early years in a boy’s life.”
Without
paying any attention to what was being expressed, Dad would continue
while leaning on the lazy chair: “A real macho male knows neither fear
nor sadness. Even if he knows it, a real male should know how to conceal
any form of emotion. Emotion only belongs to the weaker gender.”
Mum
would proudly add: “A son must be strong, should not be soft and
feminine, must choose aggressive games, should be able – indeed must be able – to command the girls to follow all his orders, and must have the desire to become the nation’s leader.”
Unable
to bear such long lectures, the males among us would start making guns
and knives out of sticks. The males among us would play war. The males
among us would combat each other and hit each other and hurt each other.
The
males among us would tear down the “homes” built by the females among
us. The males among us would bully the females among us until the
females among us start crying. Upon seeing that, the males among us
would laugh arrogantly.
Mum
and Dad would smile proudly upon witnessing the males among us bullying
the females among us. They would say: “We are very proud because all
the males among you will become real men.”
Afterwards,
Dad would continue lying on his lazy chair. Mum would continue to cook,
wash, clean and look after the children while grumbling: “Men are
useless. Why must women do all the housework! Why don’t fathers try to
be closer with their children? Would they be losing their manliness if
they helped to clean the house and cared for the children?”
* * *
One day, we caught Cat and dumped him inside a glass container.
Then, we baught a can of paint. We are not sure of the colour. We don’t
even recall the brand. But words are that the paint which we bought has
a five-year guarantee. If used somewhat after a general election, the
paint is assured to last until the next general election, five years
later.
We poured the paint into the glass container containing Cat. We let Cat soak in the paint for a few hours. Later we took him out. Of course Cat has changed colour according to the colour of the paint.
Cat told us that he was actually dead. But he was still alive, he said, because cats have nine lives.
“Miew-miew-miew,” said Cat. Translation: Take me to the government department which rejected my application to become the Head of Department.
“What for?” asked someone among us.
“Miew-miew-miew,” said Cat. Meaning: Do not ask!
We took Cat
– who has changed colour after being soaked in the paint – to the
government department which had previously rejected his application.
Cat demanded for a second interview. The highest authority from the Public Services Commission was summoned to come and interview Cat. Throughout the interview, Cat said absolutely nothing. Not even miew-miew-miew. Ten questions asked, zero answered. Hundred questions, none answered.
“Great! This is the sort of Head of Department we want. Mister Cat, you still have eight lives, right? So, the Government hereby appoints you, Mister Cat, as the Head of Department until you, Mister Cat, die for the eighth time,” the interviewer used his authority to decide.
* * *
Cat is bright. He seems to have paid close attention to what Mum and Dad have always been saying about the traits of a real male. Cat has also mastered the art of reading. It didn’t take long before Cat came to be known as a respected leader in the society.
Cat,
whom was once soaked in paint – the colour which we don’t seem to
remember – now has in himself all the criteria of a real male as
mentioned by Mum and Dad: strong, not soft and feminine, chooses
aggressive games, able to command the women to follow all his orders,
unemotional, does not like to hug and be hugged, and has a stronger
desire than ever to become the nation’s leader.
Cat has also made it possible for us to buy a residence by means of his salary as the head of a government department. Cat is often refered to as the most potential candidate to become the nation’s prominent leader.
But the fact still remains that Cat
is a cat which was once dumped into a glass container and soaked in
paint – God knows what colour – that is guaranteed to last five years
only.
That was when Dad came home one night
and “Wake up from your sleep” he said. We rushed out of the house.
Then, we took out a match and burnt down the house. The whole family
stood, staring as the flames brought down Cat to ashes.